Ashley :)

This would be one of my greatest friends Ashley Allen! If you don't know her then you're seriouly missing out...seriously. I met her on cold day at Copper Hills High School. I was with my friend Karley and apparently Ashley and Karley had been fighting or something, and so Karley was mad at Ashley ( I really don't remember why). Anyway, that was my first impression of her..that she fights with my friends. hahaha. Then a whole entire year passed and I walked in to my Ceramics class (five minutes late might I add) and there she is, sitting there laughing in the corner by the wall, actually I didn't think much about this at the time, but now I realize that she was talkin a lot! ;) and I was just the loner with no friends! Her last name being Allen and mine Brown we were assigned to sit next to each other AND share a locker. Pretty much we became instant bffs. Like a scene out of a movie, really. We had an instant connection. We both hated ceramics with a burning passion. Getting assigned next each other was a bad idea on the teacher's part though. I swear he was telling us to be quiet at least 2 times a day. It never stopped us though, we just would talk and talk and talk. And come up with the most ridiculous things like "thou shalt not be pissed!" it was fantastic :)

A whole school year after that we found ourselves in ceramics again. I still don't know why I took that class, it was awful and I hated everything about it. I could have never survived with out Ashley though. She was always right there beside me cheering me on, or laughing at my current mistake with me :) I know that I could have not passed that class a second time with out her. I told you she was amazing :)

Anyway, tonight we went to the ballet "The Sleeping Beauty" To support Briant! I was so happy that she went with me! It was so much fun! I swear we don't stop laughing and joking around anytime we're with each other. I know that we haven't been best friends for 2304280986 years, but i feel like Ashley is one of the greatest friends that I will ever have :) I love you Ash!!! :)



The happiest place on Earth!

I want to go here...and get away from this stupid weather, and maybe some stupid people too! :)



Anyone want to join me?! Its been far too long since I have been here. I want to pack up and leave RIGHT NOW! So someone please join me so I don't have to go alone ;)

I mean really, how could you not want to go to the happiest place on Earth?! :) :)

Weddings :)

Tonight I went to my friends Kandace and Trevor's wedding reception! It was so beautiful and I'm so happy for them! Kandace faithfully waited for Trevor while he served a mission in Texas! I loved talking to her about him while he was gone. She always stayed so positive, I know that they are perfect for each other!  

I have attended so many receptions this year, its insane. It always gets me so excited for my wedding one day...however soon or far away that is. I love looking at the happy couple and thinking that will be me one day! Married for Time and all Eternity to my dear sweetheart :) :) Now, I'm in no huge rush to run off and get married, but I also can't wait for that beautiful day! I want it to be in the Summer, but at the same time I don't really care! I KNOW that I will be married in the temple. The Oquirrh Mountain actually. I have always loved that temple and I consider it mine :) Anyway, being a girl I know a lot of things I want/don't want at my wedding. Like my colors will be: Hot pink, turquoise and bright yellow! Pink lemonade and regular lemonade would be my drinks of choice to be served, and I really want otter pops and other popsicles to be the refreshments :) Somehow I want to make zebra print a part of my wedding, but still have it classy.

I don't want to wear a veil, and nothing can convince me to wear one, I just don't really like them.

My hair will be either all curls or to the side with a pretty braid :) Oh and my dress will be super super poofy!

I also think that it's VERY important to have my husband's opinions on a lot of things. Because its his day after all too.

I don't want a huge fancy honeymoon right off, I think I weekend trip to Vegas will be good :) I'm serious. Then maybe a bigger trip later on :)

Getting married is such an important thing. Its something I have always dreamt about and imagined what it would be like. Now, as I'm getting older I realize its a lot more than a pretty dress, bright colors, flowers and yummy food. Its a commitment to one person for all eternity. My wedding day will be one of the most important days of my life, but I will try not to get too lost all the "worldly" stuff and remember what it is truly about :)

Firm In The Faith

"Faith is taking the first step, even when you don't see the whole staircase."

This is indeed true, isn't it? Faith is something that is so hard for me, but yet so easy at the same time. Having absolute faith in something/someone is so hard for me. I have a very difficult time believing in something  I haven't physically seen or touched. Even in simple things like if someone says "it's raining." There is some part of me that makes it so I just can't believe them. I have to find out for myself and look outside. This has been pointed out to me a lot in my life. I tell people to "prove it" a lot. I love having proof of things, it eases my mind and makes it seem true.

In the Gospel Faith is huge. Believing in someone that I have never met (or at least can't remember meeting), believing that a young boy at the age of 14 translated The Book of Mormon, and of course the life of Jesus Christ.

None of these people have physically came up to me, looked me straight in the face and told me their stories. But, I know with out a doubt that all of this has happened, and is so true and real. This is where Faith now comes easy to me. I know that Heavenly Father lives, I know he sent his Son to live a perfect life and die for me, Karlee Brown. I know Joseph Smith lived, he translated The Book of Mormon for me, Karlee Brown.

This journey of faith in the Gospel has not always came easy to me, and some days it still doesn't. I know that I have a constant life line to Heavenly Father 24/7 though. He is never too busy for me. He never puts me on the back burner, so why should I put Him there? If I could only Have a tiny bit of the devotion that he has to me for him, I know my life would be so much more blessed.This is where Faith comes into play. I have to have Faith that if I'm honestly asking for answers, and help in my life that Heavenly Father will tell me and make things possible that is the best for me. I know He always wants the best for me. Sometimes his roads are hard to accept and to live, but I have learned through hard experience that if I just do what he says the first time I will end up being much, much happier.

I'm sorry if none of this even makes sense, this was more for me clearing my head. I'm promising myself from here on out to put God first in my life. To put him where he puts me in his. I know that by doing this I will be blessed, and be able to bless the lives of many others :)

The Church is true, I promise you :)

In a world built on fleeting ground

Where i see those around me falling down

I am holding to who I am

I am choosing my Father's plan

And everyday I live

I want to stand with Him.

Firm in the faith

Anchored in truth

Solid in all that I do

No turning away

No shadow of doubt

No storm has the power

To drag me down

I'm a witness is these Latter Days

And I'm standing firm in the faith.

I am set on returning home

I want to remain in my Father's fold
So I will follow wherever He leads

Trusting his way in all things

He has called me to His side

And I will live my life

Firm in the faith

Anchored in truth

Solid in all that I do

No turning away

No shadow of doubt

No storm has the power

To drag me down

I'm witness in these Latter Days

And I'm standing firm in the faith

Like Joseph, like Hyrum

Like Daniel in the lion's den

Like Mormon, Like Ammon

Like Helaman's young valiant men

Likes Esther, like Nephi

Like all the saints who followed Christ

Firm in the faith

Anchored in truth

Solid in all that I do

No turning away

Now shadow of doubt

No storm has the power

To drag me down

I'm a witness in these Latter Days

And I'm standing firm in the Faith.

Firm In The Faith

-Jenny Phillips :) :)

Forever could never be long enough for me. :)

I'm sure you are all sick of hearing about how in love I am, but I just can't say it enough. Briant is so...great :) Really, I never could have imagined caring for someone this much. Its crazy, really. We have been getting in little baby fights lately and in all honesty they are so cute :) hahaha i know that is ridiculous, but we just say what we have to say and then its like we're instantly growing closer to each other. Our relationship is definitely not all smiles all the time though, and that is something that i like. Not that we argue, but that we can argue. I feel like I can always express my opinions to him. He never tells me I'm wrong for feeling the way I am or make my feelings seem irrational or small. Oh he is just great! I wish that you all could just meet him and you would just know what I mean!!!!

Anyway, my life has been super busy, i swear I feel like i blog about the same things allllll the time, because really my life is work, Briant, and fitting my friends in. I really miss the time I used to spend with my friends, a lot. I feel like I'm losing all my friends. Its such a sad lonely feeling. I know there is people that I'm close with, but nothing feels the same as it used to, and maybe some of that is my fault. I have went through a ton this year, and I've definitely shut a lot of people out of my life as a way of coping with things that I had no control over. Blah, growing up sure can be hard :/

I've been trying to stay on top of my reading and praying at night but I've been unsuccessful lately. It was until last night talking to a good friend about the atonement that I realized that I haven't even opened my scriptures in a week :/ That is not me. I know I need to get things back in order in my life. I'm still searching for the balance of all these new things in my life. Any suggestions?! :)

busy, busy, busy!!

Soooo I stink at blogging. We ALL know that. No surprise there.

Anyway, I have been so busy lately! And I must say I can't complain I love it! Here is what has been going on in my life! :)

Working like a mad woman. Seriously, its some crazy stuff. I'm in my final days of training for management. Its been so crazy, I love it though :) I've worked like 320940238423 hours this week (or at least it feels like it...it was probably really only 30ish.) But still, its crazy.

I want to add though, that I'm still a little sad about not getting the job at Oakcrest, but I've accepted it. I wanted that very badly, but I'm starting to understand that THIS is what Heavenly Father wanted for me, so I'm determined to make the best of it!!!

Oh Salt Lake Community College, how you have consumed so much of my time. You are not going anywhere are you? I had my very last final for Spring Semester on Thursday!!!! It was so exciting!!! My lowest grade this semester was a B+ I was so proud of myself! This semester was crazy and I'm so thankful that it's over!!! I registered for Fall, and I'm very much not excited. I'm taking American Civ, Communications, Biology and a Biology lab. Booooo. I don't wanna :/ but oh well such is life.

One of my greatest friends Ashley moved home from Snow this week!!! I'm so happy about her decision to move home!! I really hope that we get to hang out and grow closer as friends. She is just what I need right now, I love you Ash I'm so glad that you are here now:)

And last, but certainly not least....Briant:) I'm sure it should go with out saying that he is consuming my thoughts allllll the time. I'm in love, yep, its a true fact :) I value the time I get to be with him more than ever now, we probably only see each other a for a few hours during the week then whatever time is available on the weekend between working/rehearsals. I love just laying in his arms. Oh what an amazing feeling it is. And have I mentioned before how much this boy can get me laughing? Its insane, really he just knows what to do or say to make me laugh! He forced me to go see that one Fast car movie last night (i honestly don't know the name) and (just between you and me) I may have liked it, just like when he made me watch Star Trek I may have enjoyed that more than I would have ever thought! ( but we can't let him know this, I was very set on the idea of hating it) Tonight we watched another movie. We are a laaaaaaame couple. We can't think of anything fun to do that's cheap. Any ideas???? They are greatly needed. Oh did I mention we're going to Washington at the end of May!? I'm super excited! We're going to see "Wicked" Pretty day excited :) Anyway, he is amazing, and well, amazing :)

I love life. :)