This weekend I made the decision to come home so that I could watch conference at home with my family. I also was in desperate need of a break from Snow. I am very glad that I came home this weekend. Whenever I am gone from my family for long periods of time and come home I always feel so grateful for my mom. She does so much for me that I never realized until I left home. I love not worrying about whats for dinner. Something so simple that i never fully appreciated. I LOVE my mamma's home cooked meals. They are so good! She cooked some Delicious chili for my ward's chili cook-off Friday night, and some very very good ravioli things for dinner Saturday night. I appreciate my mom so much! I love that she does my laundry for me when I come home, its also an extra reason to come home!
I also come home to see Katie. I always get so excited on Fridays when I'm coming home to see her. Sometimes I consider going straight to her house just so I can get my best friend hug from her. I know i have not wrote much about her, but she really is the most amazing friend i could have ever asked for. She is so understanding, caring, and just down right amazing. This weekend we just hung out and did a lot of pointless random things, but I'm so glad that I was here to be with her!
On Friday night I went to nightmare on 13Th with some girls that are in my ward. I was extremely scared to go, just the name itself is enough to scare me away, but i faced my fear and decided that i just need to see what all the hype was about. Well, after about an hour into it we were finished, and i walked away very happy that I went. It was scary, but nothing too horrible. I have been more scared walking in my basement alone, at night in the dark before. I am glad I went though, the girls i went with are always great to be around!
Saturday night Katie, Curtis and me sat on Curtis' driveway and just talked, of course Curtis was insulting us like he always does, but something was just different this time. I could tell that we were all older and more mature. I know this sounds ridiculous but it just all seems so different. I was thinking back to the days when we were 12 and sitting in the same spot, discussing simple everyday things no we were talking about big, huge life changing decisions. I am so glad that I have these 2 amazing people in my life for so long. Curtis and I decided that we should name a star as our "best friend star" so when he is on his mission and I am on mine we can look up at it and know that we are still best friends. (cheesy right?) well this was complicated because we couldn't see many stars here in the w. j. so Curtis got this way cool AP on his phone that shows all the stars if you point it in the sky. We ended up deciding that Mercury was going to be our planet, instead of star. He is so funny..sometimes:)
Anyways, this weekend has been just what I needed. Conference has been great and super uplifting. I can't wait to hear two more sessions tomorrow!
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Frustration & Confusion.
Sometimes I wonder if there is any genuine real people left in this world. I hate hate hate when people act like they know me, and can relate to me then 5 seconds later its like we never had a heart-to-heart or anything of the sort. Right now I'm in a very awkward, tough situation, I feel like I'm always being attacked from many different angles. In result of this I am changing who I am, or at least who I was. This kills me. I once used to be a happy, funny, optimistic, lover of life type of girl. Now i don't even know if I can fully describe who I am anymore. I hate this feeling of confusion, of not knowing what to do next. I feel like before I came to Snow I had my life planned out of what i was going to be doing. School, Oakcrest, Mission, School & Career. Now I don't even know what I want out of life. I don't know where I stand with so many things. I hate the feeling of not knowing myself or who I am. Its an awful gut wrenching feeling. I thought coming here would help me find myself, not lose myself. I was just getting my life how I wanted it, coming to terms with who I was, and now its like reality has hit and its never hurt more a day in my life.
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Roommates!
I have been really lucky to get the roommates that I have, I always heard horror stories of girls living together in such close quarters, but so far nothing too bad has happened. We all get along pretty well. I thought I'd just take a few Min's and talk about each one:)
On the left is Katy. To be honest I thought from the beginning that I was not going to like her, and that we were no way going to be able to get along. She is so chill and understanding. We pretty much share a brain and I'm not kidding! We both have a lot of the same interests and think the same in a lot of different ways! Oh and we both hate feet and anything to do with them! She is super funny and just is always making me laugh!
Next is Morgan. We came down to Snow together. We have been best friends for a few years now and I am really glad that she is down here with me. We have became closer in a lot of ways, and also learned a lot about each other. Sometimes we get in little fights that are totally pointless, but they end up being funny. In the long run, I'm glad she is here with me.
Next is Dani. She is like no one I have ever met. In a good way. She is unpredictable. I love her! She is always making me laugh and making sure that I feel included and such. We are completely opposite in a lot of things, but we still have so much respect for each other. I'm so glad that I have had the chance to meet her!
Last there is Brittany. This girl is crazy! She loves sports more than anything, she is constantly playing one of figuring out ways to go play them. She seems to keep us all in line and help us keep our priorities straight. She is a very laid back girl too, I am very happy that she is living with us! Oh and she makes some pretty delicious bean dip!
This is going to be a crazy journey with these girls, but we have already had so much fun doing random crazy things, like crazy hair/make up, various dances, Denny's at 1am food fights, staying up all night talking and many more! I love them all and I'm so glad that I have been able to meet them all!
On the left is Katy. To be honest I thought from the beginning that I was not going to like her, and that we were no way going to be able to get along. She is so chill and understanding. We pretty much share a brain and I'm not kidding! We both have a lot of the same interests and think the same in a lot of different ways! Oh and we both hate feet and anything to do with them! She is super funny and just is always making me laugh!
Next is Morgan. We came down to Snow together. We have been best friends for a few years now and I am really glad that she is down here with me. We have became closer in a lot of ways, and also learned a lot about each other. Sometimes we get in little fights that are totally pointless, but they end up being funny. In the long run, I'm glad she is here with me.
Next is Dani. She is like no one I have ever met. In a good way. She is unpredictable. I love her! She is always making me laugh and making sure that I feel included and such. We are completely opposite in a lot of things, but we still have so much respect for each other. I'm so glad that I have had the chance to meet her!
Last there is Brittany. This girl is crazy! She loves sports more than anything, she is constantly playing one of figuring out ways to go play them. She seems to keep us all in line and help us keep our priorities straight. She is a very laid back girl too, I am very happy that she is living with us! Oh and she makes some pretty delicious bean dip!
This is going to be a crazy journey with these girls, but we have already had so much fun doing random crazy things, like crazy hair/make up, various dances, Denny's at 1am food fights, staying up all night talking and many more! I love them all and I'm so glad that I have been able to meet them all!
Friday, September 17, 2010
Contemplation...
Lately I have been pondering this question a lot. Why am I here in this exact location right now? It it really for me? Is this really what my Heavenly Father wants for me?
When thinking about college a few months ago I was so excited, I wanted nothing more but to move out and to find out more about myself and who I would become, but now I have found out that it is a lot harder than some make it seem. I wish that someone would have filled me in on this, don't get me wrong I do love being away from home most the time, but sometimes its nice to be around people that I know really do love me and want the best for me.
This has been a really hard month for me, I don't understand quite a few things right now, but i know that with my Heavenly Father's help I can get through anything:)
When thinking about college a few months ago I was so excited, I wanted nothing more but to move out and to find out more about myself and who I would become, but now I have found out that it is a lot harder than some make it seem. I wish that someone would have filled me in on this, don't get me wrong I do love being away from home most the time, but sometimes its nice to be around people that I know really do love me and want the best for me.
This has been a really hard month for me, I don't understand quite a few things right now, but i know that with my Heavenly Father's help I can get through anything:)
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