How does forever sound? :)

This weekend has been....amazing. Truly amazing.

Briant proposed..and I said "YES YES YES" :D 

Forever sure is a long time, but with him by my side i'm so excited. 

Okay, i'm sure you're all dying to hear the story! well here it goes.. :)

I have never wanted a really complicated engagment, and I'm so happy Briant respected that.

Saturday night he took me to my favorite dinner Red Robin! As we were driving home he pulled into the Oquirrh Mountain Temple parking lot. 

Pause. 

This temple is so close to my heart and Briant's. I participated in the Temple Celebration, open house, dedication and have done baptisims there numerous times. 

Briant was a temple worker there for about six months. 

It's where he asked me to be his girlfriend on February 28, 2011

its where we both decided we wanted to marry each other. 

And a place where we have spent countless amount of hours just talking.

Un-pause:

My stomach started doing flips. I instantly started shaking. I just KNEW what was coming next. I was so nervous/excited/happy/scared/a million other emotions that just can't be described. 

We walked around the temple grounds hand in hand. I was in a complete daze. I was thinking the whole time just how much I love him and was so grateful to have him.

We sat down on a bench in front of the temple and just talked. about everything. I kid you not it was intense. We said all sorts of goosh that no one probably cares to hear.

Then the moment came.....he said "okay, um, well, okay, um, lets do this" got down on one knee, and asked me the most life altering question ever..."Karlee Brown,will you marry me?" I paused.. (hahah i just had to make him suffer a little!) and with so much joy I said "YES YES YES!!!" 

I then saw the most beautiful ring i have ever seen. I was so emotional. So excited. So happy. So much joy filled me so quickly. Never have I felt so much love and joy for one single soul. 

I know that he is the one for me. 

Forever & Ever, babe :)

February 28, 2012 will not come fast enough :)

um, hi, remember me?

Hello fellow bloggers, long time not talk. Yeah, sorry about that. Life gets so busy sometimes its crazy!

Lets see, what has been going on....

I started a new job! I now work full time at Discover card in the Collection's department. Its been a challenge, but I also am really liking it. I started about three weeks ago, and I'm in my last week of training! Its been really hard so far, but I hear it gets a lot better when training is over! I was all excited about having my own desk, but I have to share with a morning shift person Stephen. I don't know who that is, but I feel bad that he has to share with me now. Although, I must say that it is cleaner now than it was when I first saw it. Lysol wipes do wonders! ;) 

Briant and I are doing really well! I have never been happier before! There isn't much I can say about how I feel about him with out sounding super cheesy. Being in love is such a weird feeling. (is that weird to say?) It's not what I ever dreamt it would be. I always though that I would be so over taken by the feeling, but with Briant it's the complete opposite. He is so calming, and happy. His presences makes me calm. When I'm with him, I just feel like everything is at ease. That is why I know its true, because it's like nothing I've ever experienced...see I told you it would be cheesy :) Anyways, some major changes are coming up in our relationship....if you get my drift! ;)

School starts on Wednesday I'm NOT excited about that. Just excited to see Ashley more than once a month! :) jeez, i miss that girl!

Life is busy and always changing. I love it :)

Late night thinking..

Why is it that I think best late at night? That is something I will never understand.

Anyways, I have a pretty large decision weighing on my mind.

Going to be relying in the Lord a lot tonight :) annnnnnnd just so you know, I'm definitely in love :) aaaaaand I love my life :) 

and I stink at blogging, and, thats all.

good night :) 

Perfect Sunday ♥

Today was such a happy day! 

I started the day off right with reading my scriptures and saying my prayers. It definitely set the mood for the day. I was determined to forget my troubles today and have a happy day with church and family. :)

Ohhh today was just perfect!

I went to my home ward with mom today. There is something so sweet and welcoming about going there. I always feel so loved! I'm very glad I went. I came home and ate some lunch then waited for Briant To get out of church. When he was out I went to his house and we just layed on his bed and talked for a while, then 5 hours later we realized we had been sleeping! It was such a good nap.

With my favorite person by my side ♥

Then it was dinner time at my house! Pulled pork sandwiches! One of my favorites ever! After dinner I downloaded the "fat booth" app on my ipod. Oh my gosh. don't worry, I have pictures. hahaha I love my family :)

We ended the night perfectly with fireworks! ♥

Now here is the pictures! Do not judge! ;)

 

Mom & Dad!

Sara & Nai

 Me & Briant :)

 Hahaha do you love my tumor? :)

I hope your day was as good as mine! :)

Four Months ♥

Today is such a great day :) It marks the fourth month that Briant and I have been together. It doesn't seem like that long, but I feel like I have known him forever. He is my best friend. I would be truly lost with out his love and friendship. I thank my Heavenly Father all the time for sending such a wonderful man into my life. Today my heart is so full with love. I love Briant more than I can truly say. He is everything I need and everything I want. When I first started talking to him I would have never guessed that it would turn into what it is now. We have been through a lot together in these few months and are growing closer every day. I can't wait to see what the next four has in store for us :) I love you Briant ♥

Here is some pictures from the Manti Pageant last weekend :)

Where to begin...?

Crazy, emotional, scary, upsetting, exciting, sad, happy, lonely....the list could go on and on. 

To say the least I have been an emotional roller coaster lately. Its horrible, really. 

The whole situation with my purse turned out to be a nightmare. I was and still am living somewhat of an absolute nightmare because of all of this stuff. For example: I hardly ever feel safe, my house is my least favorite place to be, and I'm just down right paranoid ALL the time. I have a horrible problem of looking at people and thinking "did you steal my purse...was it you?!" I know that is bad, but I hear its pretty normal. Anyways, I have my good days and bad days. Or i guess better put good minutes and bad minutes. I never would have thought that this would have controlled me so much. I hate it, but I just don't quite know how to fix it. So...sleeping with the TV on to make it light in my room will have to do for now. Not kidding either ;)

I  have what feels like no friends. None. :/ I feel so unimportant its ridiculous. I have always considered myself a friendly person, and easy to get along with but lately I'm wondering if there is something wrong with me. Everyone seems to have more going on in their lives than wanting to spend time with me. (I know this part is me whining and  complaining, but i feel like there isn't more i can do.) Lately I feel like I'm in some sort of depression. I can't be happy around people or by myself. When people try to make plans with me I honestly can't see why they would want to be around me. I don't know what to do. :/

One think I do know for sure is that Briant is my glue right now. He is there through every complaint, paranoid moment and exciting experiences. I can't believe that the Lord has blessed me with someone so great. A lot of the times I don't understand what i did to deserve him, but I just have to decided to Thank Heavenly Father for him every day. If there is one person in this world that can make me forget the troubles in my life right now its him. He always knows what to say. He tells me its okay to cry and to feel pain. Something that I have always had a hard time with is crying and being weak in front of someone. Briant has helped me realize that this is okay. I love him :)

I try and thank Heavenly Father for the blessings in my life. I thank him for this trial, although I wonder if i will ever truly know the meaning or reason behind all of this. Something i do know is that God works in mysterious ways. He knows what he is doing and I completely trust him :)

"When it feels like life is to hard and the person I want to be feels just out of my reach. He whispers to me that I do not need to do it alone. He never wanted me to face anything on my own. Because in the strength of the Lord I can do all things He knows how to change the weakness in me. So I will let His love lift me up. He believes I can do hard things if I will trust him and walk forward in the strength of the Lord.

He promised me there would never be anything I can't overcome. His power is more than enough. I know that if He is standing with me I can conquer everything. He offered his life so He can be by my side everyday."

Friends..or lack there of.

This is totally going to be a post where I just complain...fyi. I'm not even really convinced that anyone really even reads my posts. They're probably boring and make no sense...oh well..here it goes.

I hate the post graduation life for one reason. All my friends and I are going separate ways, like missions, college or getting married. Its so sad really, in high school I had a set group of friends. I felt like I always had someone to talk to and hang out with. I didn't realize how well I really had it...until it all left.

Yes, I have Briant. Don't get me wrong he is amazing and such a sweetheart for always listening to every single little thing I have to say, but I need my friends back too. I have no idea why it has to be like this :( It seems like I'll be really close to someone for a while then life gets in the way. Growing up is so complicated.

I know that I have friends, but that is not what I'm saying, I feel like i don't have anyone close to me anymore. Everyone is so busy starting their lives. I kinda hate it. I know that I am to blame too. I wish I would have done things differently :/

Not a happy Sunday.

Can I just say that I do not see how some people have the nerve to steal from other people. Interested in hearing more? Well here is how I spent my Sunday night.

The weather was so warm and beautiful. Briant and I couldn't pass up the opportunity to take a walk around Daybreak Lake. (one of my favorite summer hang out spots...or at least until now it was) We got there a little before 9pm parked the car, and walked around for about in hour. As we approached his car we see glass next to the driver's side window. Instantly I burst out in tears. I knew what had hap pend. Someone had broken into his car and stole my purse. I knew it. I didn't even have to look inside. It was all I could do to stay standing. I started crying and feeling completely overwhelmed by the situation. Who would do that to a complete innocent stranger? Everything I needed was in my purse. My wallet with my debit card, pictures, pay stubs and numerous other things that I needed. Also my camera and Itouch. Two things that hold a lot of value to me. I love taking pictures of everything. Actually, it was very weird to me that I didn't take my camera with my to take pictures of our walk...I wish I would have now. My Itouch meant so much to me, my sister helped me get it because I wanted it so badly. :( Just writing this makes me cry. Not because of the stuff that was stolen, but the memories, ALL my pictures are gone...forever. There is nothing I can do to have those back.

I cancelled all my debit cards and changed my account numbers today. I have to go into the dmv and get a new license, this is something I would never wish on anyone. I'm scared all the time that my house is unsafe, that my family and loved ones are in danger. I know that seems silly because it's just a purse, but really everything that tells about me is in there.

I know that it was stupid of my to leave my purse in the car. I definitely felt like I should carry it with me, but i thought I was being ridiculous because I always leave it in the car tucked under the seat. This has shown me to listen to the Spirit more. I know that if i would have we would be safe and I would not have these feelings.

Bri and I went and got a new window put on his car today. $200.00 later and he now has a brand new window :/ jeez i feel so awful.

Playing the "what if" game is the worst part about this. What if I would have taken my purse? What if they come to my house? What if they would have hurt Briant or myself? So many things that will probably haunt me for a long time :(

Ashley :)

This would be one of my greatest friends Ashley Allen! If you don't know her then you're seriouly missing out...seriously. I met her on cold day at Copper Hills High School. I was with my friend Karley and apparently Ashley and Karley had been fighting or something, and so Karley was mad at Ashley ( I really don't remember why). Anyway, that was my first impression of her..that she fights with my friends. hahaha. Then a whole entire year passed and I walked in to my Ceramics class (five minutes late might I add) and there she is, sitting there laughing in the corner by the wall, actually I didn't think much about this at the time, but now I realize that she was talkin a lot! ;) and I was just the loner with no friends! Her last name being Allen and mine Brown we were assigned to sit next to each other AND share a locker. Pretty much we became instant bffs. Like a scene out of a movie, really. We had an instant connection. We both hated ceramics with a burning passion. Getting assigned next each other was a bad idea on the teacher's part though. I swear he was telling us to be quiet at least 2 times a day. It never stopped us though, we just would talk and talk and talk. And come up with the most ridiculous things like "thou shalt not be pissed!" it was fantastic :)

A whole school year after that we found ourselves in ceramics again. I still don't know why I took that class, it was awful and I hated everything about it. I could have never survived with out Ashley though. She was always right there beside me cheering me on, or laughing at my current mistake with me :) I know that I could have not passed that class a second time with out her. I told you she was amazing :)

Anyway, tonight we went to the ballet "The Sleeping Beauty" To support Briant! I was so happy that she went with me! It was so much fun! I swear we don't stop laughing and joking around anytime we're with each other. I know that we haven't been best friends for 2304280986 years, but i feel like Ashley is one of the greatest friends that I will ever have :) I love you Ash!!! :)



The happiest place on Earth!

I want to go here...and get away from this stupid weather, and maybe some stupid people too! :)



Anyone want to join me?! Its been far too long since I have been here. I want to pack up and leave RIGHT NOW! So someone please join me so I don't have to go alone ;)

I mean really, how could you not want to go to the happiest place on Earth?! :) :)

Weddings :)

Tonight I went to my friends Kandace and Trevor's wedding reception! It was so beautiful and I'm so happy for them! Kandace faithfully waited for Trevor while he served a mission in Texas! I loved talking to her about him while he was gone. She always stayed so positive, I know that they are perfect for each other!  

I have attended so many receptions this year, its insane. It always gets me so excited for my wedding one day...however soon or far away that is. I love looking at the happy couple and thinking that will be me one day! Married for Time and all Eternity to my dear sweetheart :) :) Now, I'm in no huge rush to run off and get married, but I also can't wait for that beautiful day! I want it to be in the Summer, but at the same time I don't really care! I KNOW that I will be married in the temple. The Oquirrh Mountain actually. I have always loved that temple and I consider it mine :) Anyway, being a girl I know a lot of things I want/don't want at my wedding. Like my colors will be: Hot pink, turquoise and bright yellow! Pink lemonade and regular lemonade would be my drinks of choice to be served, and I really want otter pops and other popsicles to be the refreshments :) Somehow I want to make zebra print a part of my wedding, but still have it classy.

I don't want to wear a veil, and nothing can convince me to wear one, I just don't really like them.

My hair will be either all curls or to the side with a pretty braid :) Oh and my dress will be super super poofy!

I also think that it's VERY important to have my husband's opinions on a lot of things. Because its his day after all too.

I don't want a huge fancy honeymoon right off, I think I weekend trip to Vegas will be good :) I'm serious. Then maybe a bigger trip later on :)

Getting married is such an important thing. Its something I have always dreamt about and imagined what it would be like. Now, as I'm getting older I realize its a lot more than a pretty dress, bright colors, flowers and yummy food. Its a commitment to one person for all eternity. My wedding day will be one of the most important days of my life, but I will try not to get too lost all the "worldly" stuff and remember what it is truly about :)

Firm In The Faith

"Faith is taking the first step, even when you don't see the whole staircase."

This is indeed true, isn't it? Faith is something that is so hard for me, but yet so easy at the same time. Having absolute faith in something/someone is so hard for me. I have a very difficult time believing in something  I haven't physically seen or touched. Even in simple things like if someone says "it's raining." There is some part of me that makes it so I just can't believe them. I have to find out for myself and look outside. This has been pointed out to me a lot in my life. I tell people to "prove it" a lot. I love having proof of things, it eases my mind and makes it seem true.

In the Gospel Faith is huge. Believing in someone that I have never met (or at least can't remember meeting), believing that a young boy at the age of 14 translated The Book of Mormon, and of course the life of Jesus Christ.

None of these people have physically came up to me, looked me straight in the face and told me their stories. But, I know with out a doubt that all of this has happened, and is so true and real. This is where Faith now comes easy to me. I know that Heavenly Father lives, I know he sent his Son to live a perfect life and die for me, Karlee Brown. I know Joseph Smith lived, he translated The Book of Mormon for me, Karlee Brown.

This journey of faith in the Gospel has not always came easy to me, and some days it still doesn't. I know that I have a constant life line to Heavenly Father 24/7 though. He is never too busy for me. He never puts me on the back burner, so why should I put Him there? If I could only Have a tiny bit of the devotion that he has to me for him, I know my life would be so much more blessed.This is where Faith comes into play. I have to have Faith that if I'm honestly asking for answers, and help in my life that Heavenly Father will tell me and make things possible that is the best for me. I know He always wants the best for me. Sometimes his roads are hard to accept and to live, but I have learned through hard experience that if I just do what he says the first time I will end up being much, much happier.

I'm sorry if none of this even makes sense, this was more for me clearing my head. I'm promising myself from here on out to put God first in my life. To put him where he puts me in his. I know that by doing this I will be blessed, and be able to bless the lives of many others :)

The Church is true, I promise you :)

In a world built on fleeting ground

Where i see those around me falling down

I am holding to who I am

I am choosing my Father's plan

And everyday I live

I want to stand with Him.

Firm in the faith

Anchored in truth

Solid in all that I do

No turning away

No shadow of doubt

No storm has the power

To drag me down

I'm a witness is these Latter Days

And I'm standing firm in the faith.

I am set on returning home

I want to remain in my Father's fold
So I will follow wherever He leads

Trusting his way in all things

He has called me to His side

And I will live my life

Firm in the faith

Anchored in truth

Solid in all that I do

No turning away

No shadow of doubt

No storm has the power

To drag me down

I'm witness in these Latter Days

And I'm standing firm in the faith

Like Joseph, like Hyrum

Like Daniel in the lion's den

Like Mormon, Like Ammon

Like Helaman's young valiant men

Likes Esther, like Nephi

Like all the saints who followed Christ

Firm in the faith

Anchored in truth

Solid in all that I do

No turning away

Now shadow of doubt

No storm has the power

To drag me down

I'm a witness in these Latter Days

And I'm standing firm in the Faith.

Firm In The Faith

-Jenny Phillips :) :)

Forever could never be long enough for me. :)

I'm sure you are all sick of hearing about how in love I am, but I just can't say it enough. Briant is so...great :) Really, I never could have imagined caring for someone this much. Its crazy, really. We have been getting in little baby fights lately and in all honesty they are so cute :) hahaha i know that is ridiculous, but we just say what we have to say and then its like we're instantly growing closer to each other. Our relationship is definitely not all smiles all the time though, and that is something that i like. Not that we argue, but that we can argue. I feel like I can always express my opinions to him. He never tells me I'm wrong for feeling the way I am or make my feelings seem irrational or small. Oh he is just great! I wish that you all could just meet him and you would just know what I mean!!!!

Anyway, my life has been super busy, i swear I feel like i blog about the same things allllll the time, because really my life is work, Briant, and fitting my friends in. I really miss the time I used to spend with my friends, a lot. I feel like I'm losing all my friends. Its such a sad lonely feeling. I know there is people that I'm close with, but nothing feels the same as it used to, and maybe some of that is my fault. I have went through a ton this year, and I've definitely shut a lot of people out of my life as a way of coping with things that I had no control over. Blah, growing up sure can be hard :/

I've been trying to stay on top of my reading and praying at night but I've been unsuccessful lately. It was until last night talking to a good friend about the atonement that I realized that I haven't even opened my scriptures in a week :/ That is not me. I know I need to get things back in order in my life. I'm still searching for the balance of all these new things in my life. Any suggestions?! :)

busy, busy, busy!!

Soooo I stink at blogging. We ALL know that. No surprise there.

Anyway, I have been so busy lately! And I must say I can't complain I love it! Here is what has been going on in my life! :)

Working like a mad woman. Seriously, its some crazy stuff. I'm in my final days of training for management. Its been so crazy, I love it though :) I've worked like 320940238423 hours this week (or at least it feels like it...it was probably really only 30ish.) But still, its crazy.

I want to add though, that I'm still a little sad about not getting the job at Oakcrest, but I've accepted it. I wanted that very badly, but I'm starting to understand that THIS is what Heavenly Father wanted for me, so I'm determined to make the best of it!!!

Oh Salt Lake Community College, how you have consumed so much of my time. You are not going anywhere are you? I had my very last final for Spring Semester on Thursday!!!! It was so exciting!!! My lowest grade this semester was a B+ I was so proud of myself! This semester was crazy and I'm so thankful that it's over!!! I registered for Fall, and I'm very much not excited. I'm taking American Civ, Communications, Biology and a Biology lab. Booooo. I don't wanna :/ but oh well such is life.

One of my greatest friends Ashley moved home from Snow this week!!! I'm so happy about her decision to move home!! I really hope that we get to hang out and grow closer as friends. She is just what I need right now, I love you Ash I'm so glad that you are here now:)

And last, but certainly not least....Briant:) I'm sure it should go with out saying that he is consuming my thoughts allllll the time. I'm in love, yep, its a true fact :) I value the time I get to be with him more than ever now, we probably only see each other a for a few hours during the week then whatever time is available on the weekend between working/rehearsals. I love just laying in his arms. Oh what an amazing feeling it is. And have I mentioned before how much this boy can get me laughing? Its insane, really he just knows what to do or say to make me laugh! He forced me to go see that one Fast car movie last night (i honestly don't know the name) and (just between you and me) I may have liked it, just like when he made me watch Star Trek I may have enjoyed that more than I would have ever thought! ( but we can't let him know this, I was very set on the idea of hating it) Tonight we watched another movie. We are a laaaaaaame couple. We can't think of anything fun to do that's cheap. Any ideas???? They are greatly needed. Oh did I mention we're going to Washington at the end of May!? I'm super excited! We're going to see "Wicked" Pretty day excited :) Anyway, he is amazing, and well, amazing :)

I love life. :)

Tumbleweeds?

Have you ever thought during a massive wind storm where all the dang tumbleweeds magically appear from?? Today on my way to work I was thinking this as a massive...and I mean massive one hit my car at a red light. It was so loud I screamed because I thought someone hit me!!

I don't know if anyone else experienced this huge nasty storm today, but it was terrifying. The whole time at work I was praying that the power would go out so we'd get set home...but it didn't. Somehow my store did get filled with leaves though...not very much appreciated.

Oh and...my car door may or may not have hit the car next to mine when I opened my door...shhhh don't tell anyone! :)

A greatly needed weekend!

What a fabulous life I have!! :)

Okay, this weekend has been great! And well needed too!! Friday night I played with Morgan and Connor! Oh we just have so much fun, we got Jamba! Then watched Easy A! Such a funny movie. I enjoyed it, although i probably shouldn't of...Then we played Apples to Apples!!! I kicked every one's trash (okay three of us including me) with 12 cards! :)

Saturday I worked, It was super slow and boring! I though 5 would never come..because you know why....??? I was seeing my man! :) :) I know, I know :) Anyways, we went to one of his really good friends wedding receptions. It was super well done, with 12 different options of rice krispies!! i was in heaven, anyways, we went out to kneaders after! So so good!

Then something great happened! As i was walking out the door I saw one of my greatest friends! Ashley Allen! I was so happy! It was like a scene in a movie, i was so excited to see her! (I hope you enjoyed your kneaders Ash! Love you :) )

Sunday we went to church, then took a huuuuuuuuge nap! I loved that part:) Then we went to dinner and read scriptures! now its bed time:)

I must say though, I have truly been blessed with such a fabulous life, its anything but perfect, but I wouldn't have it any other way.

I believe that everything happens for a reason...

Wow, first of all I'm the worst blogger ever, pretty sure no one even reads when i post, which is like twice a month! I want to be better at this!

Anyways, I have been one busy little girl these past few weeks! I have been trying so hard to stay busy and on top of my homework. All I can say about homework is that I'm so ready for Spring Semester to be over. It was my first "full" semester I've accomplished, and it has been so hard! Every day is a new challenge. I can honestly say that school and i just don't get along. Even just waking up for class is a struggle, even if some mornings I don't have to get up until 9! Its so ridiculous. I need to be better!

Anyways, I feel the need to tell the world that I'm absolutely falling in love with Briant, yep you read this right, every day is something new with us. Every time I'm around him I become more and more sure of him. He's so amazing. I love that we both have such a deep love for the Gospel. He makes me want to be a better person! We have been reading in D&C for the past week and a half together. I can't even express in words how close this has gotten us. We share our feelings on what we've read, and just talk about church stuff, it makes me so happy. I've never felt the spirit so sweetly the way I do when I'm around him. I don't even know if that makes sense, but its true.

We just get along so great! He is so funny! have I mentioned that before? He is always cracking jokes and trying to make me smile even when I'm upset. He knows just what to say that will make me laugh. I knows its cheesy, but he honestly can always with out fail make me laugh when I'm in a bad mood, no one has ever been able to do that. He does the cutest things! Like he always will "secretly" wink at me. It makes my heart melt every time. I swear, this boy is amazing. He'll be playing the organ on Sunday during Sacrament meeting and look over and wink at me, and for a few seconds I feel like its just him and me there, he has that great effect on me....oh jeez I'm rambling about his greatness! I just wish you all could meet him...(you all as in my readers..if I even have any?) anyways, I Karlee Brown am falling in love with an amazing boy. That about sums that up.

Oh and everything happens for a reason, I know this to be true. Heavenly Father has helped me realize that in the past little while :) I promise you the church is true. If you have doubts ask Heavenly Father. He has testified it to me on several occasions. Tonight included. Have a good night :)

untitled?

Pretty much the past few weeks have been so crazy!

Spring break has came and gone. Sadly, I didn't go on any crazy adventure or out of the state, but I did work, sleep in almost every single day, not think about school once, hang out, and just have a really chill week. It was great!

But then the real world has hit me again. This semester is ending so soon! I can't  believe it! First year of college is almost over, and I'm definitely not where I expected to see myself a year ago, but I couldn't be happier! :) End of the semester is very stressful though! All these crazy projects coming from every direction! Its so stressful! Sometimes I wish i wasn't such a procrastinator, but I highly doubt that will ever change.

I officially started working as a manager at Justice During Spring Break. I love it! The hours are just right with school, and its just nice to have a little authority :) Anyways, work is pretty...okay i guess. I don't really mind it.

Briant is well...amazing. Yep that is a good word to sum him up. He just treats me so great. I could go on for days so i will just leave it at that. He is amazing, and makes me the happiest girl on the planet!

Life is pretty good right now, except for the fact that I have a nasty cold right now, which has resulted in an addiction to delicious cough drops mmmm :) they're tasty! :)

Priesthood and insta care! :)

This weekend I have felt pretty crappy, just with a tummy ache and all. I just kinda ignored it and tried to enjoy myself. Well Sunday morning I woke up and it was getting worse. I went and sat through church with out telling anyone, and the pain was getting worse. I called Briant after church and explained to pain to him. He said it could probably be my appendix but he hoped not, I started getting a little scared and ignoring the pain, hoping it would go away. Well, hours later it didn't so I told my mom and we decided we needed to go to the insta care, because it was looking like it was my appendix. I was so scared, I was in tears. I've generally been a pretty healthy person, so any scare like this makes me really nervous. I got a hold of Briant (six calls later. He was sleeping!) and he hurried over and gave me a blessing with Katie's dad. Instantly I felt better, I felt so much comfort and love from my Heavenly Father. I knew that he was there with me, I knew that he was going to make sure I was going to be okay.

Anyways, we go to the insta care, and after some tests and an x-ray it was nothing to do with my appendix and I'll be just fine in a couple days! I have never been so relieved and happy. I know that Heavenly Father was watching over me and the nurses and doctors who were doing the tests. :) I'm so happy to be healthy!

Lucky me :)

This man right here is amazing! I'm so lucky :)

He came over tonight and we looked though all my old school dance pictures! So funny! We watched some pretty entertaining youtube videos as well:)

Then we went to dinner with some friends. It was so much fun! We went to my all time favorite restaurant! Red Robin! It was so delicious. After we played Kinect for a while then Briant and I went for a drive up in Draper, he took me to this gorgeous view it was breathtaking!! Then we attempted to watch Singles Ward, but we definitely slept through....most of it. Really, I'm so lucky to have him! He's is amazing I kid you not!!

Just one of those days.

Today is the type of day where I just want to run far away, and just cry. Possibly never come back. I guess you can only put off problems for so long before they come back and find you. :(

Movies, Rumbi, Movies, Piano, Movies. :)

What a great weekend it has been!!! It started off with breakfast with Katie on Friday morning and has been great since then!! Friday night Katie, Taylor, Briant and myself went on a double date! It was so much fun! We went to Rumbi. If you haven't been there i suggest you go. Like right now, because its THAT good. I got this amazing rice bowl with pulled pork. I want it again! Then we went to go bowling, but it was an hour and half wait so we decided to just watch a movie at Katie's house instead. Picking movies out is always such a process with us! First we started with Enough, then Taylor said he didn't like it so we stopped it and he picked some ridiculous one that got rejected right off. Then we settled for Night at the Museum. I had never seen that! It was so good. I loved it, and Briant slept through 3/4 of it. Snoring the whole time, it was so cute!!

Saturday I had to work until 5:30 after that Briant came over and we just hung out at my house and talked. I love talking to him!!! Then, he remembered that he was supposed to play for this girl in sacrament tomorrow, so we rushed to his house and practiced for a while. I didn't mind at all! I could listen to him play the piano all day. We then went back to my house and attempted to watch national treasure, but i fell asleep way to quickly. Then my mom started yelling at my sister so we decided it was best to leave! So we went to his house and watched some weird show, but really it was just background noise to us talking. I love talking to him so much. Its so easy and comfortable. :) There is not a better feeling then that :)

Church has came and gone, and Briant of course played amazingly for this not so amazing singer, but all in all it turned out well :)

Happiness!

Now I know that I'm not all super fancy with this here blog situation, but I do love blogging about my life, and I have decided to be more dedicated to it. I love reading other people's blogs and reading about their lives. Even though mine isn't super exciting there is definitely "blog worthy" things.

Like for instance, I am having thee hardest time going to class lately. I don't know what it is, but I just can't stand going to class. Does anyone else have this problem? Or a solution to this problem because it is getting the best of me more than it doesn't.

Oh and I met a boy. About three or so weeks ago actually, and I'm just so happy. We met in our singles ward (I know, cute right?) well, he plays the organ, and I saw him playing and anyone that knows me know that I love guys with musical talent, ohh and he is very talented! Well, long story short we started talking and we have seen each other about every day since. He is wonderful, amazing, and so great. I can't even describe it. Oh he has a name its Briant :) I have never quite been so happy dating someone its super cute:) We love to just watch movies at my house or go on ridiculous drives somewhere. Somehow though we always end up at the Oquirrh Mountain Temple. We both LOVE that temple, its so gorgeous. We'll just park there and talk about everything. Its great. I got my wisdom teeth out last week and Briant was such a sweetheart. He came over and took care of me, sat with me, and we watched countless amounts of movies. He never once made fun of my chubby cheeks, he just made me feel so good about myself. Once again, so cute, right? :)

Yeah, so life is pretty grand right now. I have no complaints :)

Our deepest apology...

As most of you know I applied to work at Oakcrest girls camp this summer as a camp counselor, and there has honestly never been something I have wanted more in my life than to work there this summer. I wanted to change lives, i wanted to teach the gospel and most of all I wanted girls to have the same experiences I had at Oakcrest.

But, obviously Heavenly Father has a different plan for me this summer. I received a letter in the mail from the Oakcrest committee today saying that they received many applications and encourage me to apply for next Summer. I just about died, or wanted to. I wanted this job so badly. All along I told myself that if I didn't get the job that it would be okay, because its all very inspired of who works there, but I never saw myself not working there this summer. The whole line of "if you're supposed to be there, you'd be there" wasn't helping at this moment.

After thinking about it though I have so much comfort in the fact that Heavenly Father knows whats best for me, and he has great things in store for me this Summer. I just know it. I'm very excited to see what I accomplish. In some strange way this has made my love for Heavenly Father grow even stronger. He truly knows me, and loves me. Even though I didn't get what I wanted, I know that great things are in store for me :)

Prayers ARE answered!!!

So would y'all like to hear how i spent my early Friday morning? I'm sure you are dying to know :)

Well I was peacefully sleeping in my bed at 3am when a really good friend of mine calls me, and tells me he is in the ER and instantly my heart sinks...all I could think of was the worst possible situations (it didn't help that I had been asleep for about 3 hours) anyways, he continues to tell me that he is all alone so I offer to come sit with him and keep him company. So, I go there and sit...and sit...and sit...and try to sleep and sit some more. Anyways, he was having very bad lower abdominal pain. No matter what the doctors tried to do they couldn't pinpoint the problem. Can I just tell you that this is the worst feeling ever. EVER. Someone I care about so very much is in so much pain and there is nothing I can do, but pray. I did just that. I prayed for almost 24 hours straight I prayed to Heavenly Father that my dear friend would be okay, and relieved. Heavenly Father loves all of his children so much. He never wants to see us suffer. Tonight he comforted my friend and myself. Things might not be better yet, but we have peace of mind. I love the power of prayer it is amazing.

Prayer Changes Things...

For graduation my sister bought me this tile that says "prayer changes things" on it. It's on my dresser and I don't even hardly notice it anymore, but i was looking at it yesterday, and it made me stop and think how my life is so diff rent right now because I have a constant desire to talk with Heavenly Father.

Prayer does change things. Maybe not over night, and maybe not even in the way you would have expected, but I promise that the power of prayer is real. Heavenly Father always wants to hear about whats on our minds, and help us with important decisions.

I once was very frustrated that I wasn't getting an answer to my prayer that I had wanted so badly. But now I realize i was doing it all wrong. I didn't have complete faith that I would get my answer, i was just hoping that it would happen and I'd have the "burning in the bosom" feeling. Then i was very frustrated that I wasn't feeling this way.

Now, looking back my answer was there all along, i just was too blind to see it.

I promise that Prayer Changes Things. It may not be over night, but having a constant prayer in your heart, and talking with Heavenly Father will work miracles in your life :)

How can...

everything be going so well, and so great then unexpectedly a bump in the road is hit head on, and turns everything back to how it was? I don't understand.

Spring Semester :)

So I started my second semester of college last Monday. Oh my has it already been an adventure! SLCC is so different from Snow in so many ways, good and bad.

I'm already loving it so much more though. My classes are great, my teachers are fabulous and I know that they care and are experts at what they're teaching.

My favorite class I'm taking right now is Into to teaching. Because, as most of you know I want to be in elementary teacher! :) I'm already loving this class so much! I have actually been reading the book for fun, I know I'm a total freak! I know that this class is going to help me so much. I have to 15 hours of student teaching too! I'm so nervous and so excited at the same time!

I'm taking a few other classes, but they are not as interesting as this class. At least not yet, but I'm still enjoying them as well! I'm so grateful that I can be going to school and be able to have goals and opportunities to reach these goals!

Something that I'm getting used to though is the parking! Its so ridiculous!! The first day I found one within 1 minute of looking and i was thinking that's how it would be every time! No, I was SO wrong. On Tuesday it took be 55 minutes to find a parking spot. So, yes I was 35 mins late to class. That was embarrassing. Oh well I'm learning the ins and out of SLCC and I'm trying to enjoy and love every second of it :)

Oh life is just grand :)

Church music..

Okay, so lately I have been having this odd obsession of listening to church music everywhere all the time! Its so weird, but I love it! I can't get enough of it! I bought a new CD at Deseret Book last week and I have loved it! It's We Believe Songs For Youth 2011 by Jenny Phillips. Its so amazing!!! I already have all the songs memorized. I'm telling you, its just amazing. My favorite song on it right now is called Stay. They lyrics are so comforting and just exactly how I feel right now. Honestly, Nothing makes me happier right now than listening to this music. I listen to it in the car, my room, whenever my laptop is on, on my ipod EVERYWHERE.

Also, I just started Rereading The Book Of Mormon again. I recently just finished reading it at the end of the year, and I was feeling like it was a good idea to reread it. Such a good idea! Also, last week in Sacrament there was a speaker (I know he was a member of the 70 but i don't remember who! oops!) anyways, he challenged us to read The Book Of Mormon before Conference in April. So of course I'm always up for a good Book Of Mormon challenge! So its five pages a day is what he said to do, but i just read it by reading ten pages a night, so I have decided to read 12 pages a night, its hard, but SO worth it. SO WORTH IT!

I know this is my second post in a row about church related stuff, but honestly the gospel is my life right now. I'm recently realizing how much power and strength comes from honestly reading and praying every day. I never want to go a day with out it again!

Anyways, I just feel like I need to testify that The Church is true. There is no doubt in my mind about that. The Savior lives. I know that in his strength I can do anything and overcome the trials in my life. He is waking this path with me, and I don't want it any other way.

In the name of Jesus Christ Amen :)

"When it feels like life is too hard and the person that I want to be feels just out of me reach He whispers to me that I do not need to do it alone He never wanted me to face anything on my own. Because in the strength of the Lord I can do all things. He knows how to change the weakness in me. So I will let his light lift me up. He believes I can do hard things if I will trust him. And walk forward in the strength of the Lord." :) :)

- In the Strength of the Lord By Jenny Phillips.

Happily Ever After. . .

Growing up I always heard stories of princesses and they were all very similar. They all start with Once upon a time and there is always these beautiful girls that usually had a very hard life or a big trial to come over, and after all of that there was a guy (or night and shining armor) that would come and "rescue" her from all of this, and they always lived happily ever after.

The other day I was watching one of these movies and it had been a long time since I have seen it and I kept relating it to my life. A few days prior to watching this movie I heard a song by Jenny Phillips "Happily Ever After" (if you haven't heard it i suggest you listen to it) and connected it to a talk by Elder Uchtdorf "Your Happily Ever After" both of these are so inspired by Heavenly Father it amazes me :)

Oh my goodness, I just have so many thoughts about all of this its crazy. In the song it says that right now we are just between "once upon a time" and "happily ever after" In a way that it so scary. We are sent to Earth to learn and grow and return to Heavenly Father. Sounds easy right?? Now, we all know its anything but easy. But, something that I have really realized in the past two weeks that the Savior lives. He is here walking this "in between time" time with us, he is our guide and should be our ultimate source of direction.

"Sometimes in your life the world will cast a spell and try to make your conscious fall asleep and forget the woman God would have you be, but if you are still you will understand the noble role you'll play in his plan. It's your time its you destiny to shine." How amazing and true is that!? We all know that life is hard and that spells are cast on us all the time, but if we just remember that God sent us here for a divine purpose it makes it so much easier.

Its has been so easy for me lately to get caught up in things in my life that are not perfect or out of a fairytale. I have let these things consume me. Change my opinion on so many things. But, after talking to a really good friend, praying and reading my scriptures I know that it was the Spirit that lead me to listing to that song and reading that talk. I know it!

Sometimes it does seem like the better option just to give. I got myself in the mind set that what does it matter its my life. Its only effecting me. Oh boy was I wrong! My good friend said this to me "Is eternity really worth losing when its easy to "give in"? ( I love you Ashley!!) This also got me realizing some things in my life. No, its not worth losing! I can do it, I can pull through and get to MY Happily Ever After. With tons of help from my family, friends, leaders and of course my Savior.

"don't settle for the story that the world would have you write you were born to reach eternal life let faith fill every chapter let the Savior lead you to....Happily Ever After." :)

Day 3: Something that stresses me out.

This is so hard! Because sadly there is a lot of things that stress me out lately. But, the big thing right now is change. I know that is very vague, but change has aways been something that has been hard for me to accept and do. So many things are changing in my life right now. Some things I can control and others are completely out of my hands. Change stresses me out a lot, because sometimes its hard to decide when change is good, bad, or needed. A lot of the times when it is needed its very hard to accept and to stick with what I'm trying to do. I realize that a lot of this probably doesn't make sense, but its a major stressor in my life right now. I am deciding if I'm changing some things about me for the right reasons or if its really for me. Change can be very hurtful. Not just to the person changing or making changes but to the ones that are close to that person. The saying "people change" is sadly so true. That is something I'm realizing in my life right now. With one person in particular. Anyways, change is inevitable, sadly enough. But such is life.